doctor zhivago (count=795)


One. I want to watch Doctor Zhivago.

He’s not so interested. Probably because it goes on for more than three hours.

We end up watching Charlie Wilson’s War which turns out to be pretty good. I’m a bit scared of films where Americans help other people fight for freedom. Because freedom does not necessarily equal a chance to be better. Luckily, the film recognizes this as Tom Hanks’ character attempts and fails to secure funding to rebuild Afghanistan. Funny that it’s easier to get billion dollar funding for weapons than million dollar funding for schools. I guess fear is the strongest motivator.

Two. I want to go skiing in Collingwood.

He’s not so interested.

I say: Why not?
He says: We went horseback riding last year. When my ex asked me to go riding, I said no. I’m already trying harder.

Thankfully, I’m old enough to know that the key to happiness is not forcing other people to do things that they don’t want to do. In fact, if I were to analyze all the times when I was overly critical of someone else, I would probably find that it was all rooted in my own fears and insecurities.

So what’s my biggest fear in life? Not being able to do all the things that I want to do. Whether it’s due to limits imposed by my personality or skills (or lack thereof). Whether it’s due to missed opportunities.

Knowing this helps me become less critical of other people and think more creatively about all the things that I want to do. If we get stuck in Collingwood with nothing to do, maybe we can watch Doctor Zhivago!


Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s